Tuesday 24 January
45 days sober
Resolve to stay sober rating: 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will not mine be done.
Amen
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Remember for today: Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – all the time!
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Woke up today on another cold morning, not sure why but it feels especially cold today. Part of me wants to come straight home after work today and do some household chores/exercise/go to bed early/generally have a day that’s easier on paper rather than go to a meeting after work. However, the last time I skipped a Tuesday meeting I ended up relapsing so I’m going to the meeting, simple as that. It’s one day at a time and God’s will is directing me to go to the meeting tonight.

Monday 23 January
44 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen
……………
Remember for today:
Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – all the time!
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.

I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if only I can quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.

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God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
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I have a potentially tricky situation coming up at work today. I know that I will feel emotionally compromised during this, but I just need to keep repeating “God’s will” in my mind. The emotional feeling is a reaction. I just need to keep my mouth shut for however long I need, 5-10 seconds might be all it takes for the emotional reaction to calm down. Then, I can consult God’s will (more atheist/agnostic minds than mine might call it common sense or gut feeling. Whatever you want to call it, it’s there) and I know that will guide me to the best action (even though I might not feel it is I have to believe it is because I’m powerless and there is no other choice!).

Sunday 22 January
43 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen

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Remember for today:
Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – all the time!
………………………

Another nice day yesterday, caught up with some family and friends. There was a brief 10 minute spell in the late afternoon when I felt a bit down/jaded but I had a nap and then after doing an outreach call and a couple of tasks and had some food I felt a lot better. Middle of the day was quie hectic so I probably hadn’t ate enough during the first half of the day so was probably also got too hungry by the late afternoon.

Best wishes to all,

Jeff

Saturday 22 January
42 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen
…….
Remember for today:
Keep repeating “God’s will” in your mind – all the time!
……..

God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.

I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if only I can quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.

………………….

God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.
………….

Quite a nice day yesterday, got to a meeting, had a decision to make in the morning which I consulted God’s will about. God told me to wait an hour and ask again. I did this and then when I came to ask him what to do he told me and I feel very happy with the decision he made. So yeah, I really feel like the 12 step programme is working and it’s important to not get complacent, remember I am completely powerless and ALWAYS will be. So I have to do recovery work everyday. I can never take a day off from recovery.

Friday 20 January
41 days sober
RR 100%

God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
……………….

Remember for today:
God’s will
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God, thank you for a sober day yesterday. Please give me the strength to stay sober today. Amen.
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God, give me the power to quieten and calm my mind so that I can hear your will. Please direct my decision making at all times, because my previous game plan for living that I came up with myself has produced disastrous results in terms of my happiness and peace of mind. I want you to do my thinking for me, I do not want to analyse decisions in life anymore using my own intellect and thinking.

I offer my work and effort to carry out your directions but please allow my mind to hear your broadcasting beacon which I know is in my soul, which I will always be able to hear if only I can quieten the static and noise of my own ruminations.

………………….

God, make me an instrument of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love.
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness.
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony.
That where there is error, I may bring truth.
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith.
That where there is despair, I may bring hope.
That where there are shadows, I may bring light.
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

God, grant that I may seek to comfort, rather than to be comforted.
Seek to understand, rather than to be understood.
Seek to love, rather than to be loved.
For it is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.

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Much better day at work yesterday than the day before. Still feeling something of an emotional hangover from Wednesday but yeah, yesterday went a lot better in terms of how I handled things. Repeating the “God’s will” mantra over and over in my head all day helped. It made me feel more at peace and when a potential flashpoint of a situation popped up I handled it very well.